Friday, November 7, 2014

The End

I’ve thought so many times of closing this blog down.  I haven’t done it yet, but at this time, I think that’s what the best decision is for me.  I just don’t have the time that I used to to dedicate to this blog.  I used to have a really boring job where I could surf the internet pretty much the entire day and get paid for it.  Not anymore.  If I surf the internet for even 15 minutes, I get behind.  Then usually by the time I get home, I’m exhausted and don’t want to come up with a blog entry.

It’s become a chore, and not something I enjoy anymore.  So with that, I’m going to have to shut this place down.  I will continue reading/following other blogs.  And maybe some day I’ll come back (under a different name).  But this is the end for My Inner Butterfly.

I know there are not many of you out there, but to whoever is reading this…thanks for sticking around.  I’ve definitely enjoyed this place…’s this space that brought me to my very first 5K.  Something I will always remember.  This blog has seen a lot of ups and downs, and I am forever grateful for it, and all the readers who have commented.  I appreciate you more than you know.

Thanks again.

Saturday, November 1, 2014

Another Wake-Up Call

I had another wake up call last night.  I'm not sure how many more of these I'm going to have before I finally change things.  But I hope it's some time soon.

Last night I went out with some friends, and I wanted to look extra nice, because lately I haven't been looking too nice.  I did my hair, did my makeup (a rare occurrence), and as I was getting ready to head out, I grabbed my pretty blue jacket that I've had for a few years.

It didn't fit.  I couldn't even zip it up.

How could that be??  I didn't think that I had really gained that much weight.  But there it was, plain as day.

"Okay," I thought.  "I still have my red one.  I don't have to zip it up.  It just has two buttons and a tie around the waist."

It didn't fit.  It was very tight around the shoulders/arms area.


You can only ignore the signs for so long.  I always thought it was weird how people didn't notice they were gaining weight.  But I see how it can happen now.  I mean....I knew I was gaining weight.  But I didn't think it was that noticeable.  Clothes don't lie.  And jackets certainly don't lie.

I'm so tired of this.  So.  Very.  Tired.

When is this going to stop?  It has to.  And soon.    :(

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Friday, October 31, 2014

I Could Be a Scarrryyyy Vampire

Happy Halloween!  Make sure to enjoy that candy, candy, candy (as Garfield would say)!  Just don’t forget about any nutrition/weight loss goals.    ;)  I actually watched the Garfield Halloween special on Hulu a couple nights ago.  Had a smile on my face the entire time.  I just love Garfield!

I’m actually not a big Halloween person, but I love all the movies, TV shows, etc with Halloween themes.  So not sure what I’ll be doing tonight…..probably watching some of those movies and TV shows.    :)

I finally had a chance to look through the schedules of all the Lifetime Fitness clubs around me to see which classes I’ll be going to on which days.  And here’s what I’ve come up with….

Warrior Sculpt – 5:30-6:30

FIT – 5:30-6:15
Zumba – 6:30-7:30

50/50 Step – 4:45-5:45
Slowburn Vinyasa – 6:00-7:00

LifeBarre – 4:45-5:45

Yin/Restorative Yoga – 4:15-5:15

TCX – 9:00 AM – 10:00 AM

Slowburn Vinyasa – 7:30 AM-8:30 AM
Step (optional) – 8:45 AM-9:30 AM

I’ll go into more detail for the classes as time goes on, but this is going to be my schedule for the next month.  After the month is over, I’ll re-evaluate, and see if I want to continue with this or try something different.  But I’m committing to this for one whole month!!  No trying something new after a couple days because I think I might have found something different/better.  I’m forcing myself to stick with it enough to actually be able to measure my progress.

For the nutrition front, I’ll be following the Fit Girl’s guide 28-Day Jumpstart Challenge.  They actually started a challenge on the 27th, but with all my craziness going on last weekend, I just couldn’t start on Monday.  So Monday, November 3, is my start date.  More on that to come as well!

Hope everyone has a fun and safe Halloween!


What are you dressing up as for Halloween?

Have any furry friends you’ll be dressing up? 
-I really, really wanted to dress Ricky up, but my laziness got the best of me.   ;)   Maybe next year!

Any fun Halloween plans?  If you’re not a Halloween fan, what sorts of things do you like to do on Halloween night?

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Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Busy Busy

I’ve gotten behind in my blogging again.  But just so you know, that does NOT mean that I’m not working on my health/fitness goals.  Life has just been crazy busy lately, and it’s starting to settle down again.

One thing that has kept me busy…..I signed up to be a judge for dance team!!!  I am so so excited about this.  I was so bummed when I had to drop out of the studio I was going to because it just cost too much.  But now I can sort of keep dance in my life, and get paid to do it!!  The pay was not the reason I decided to do it – it’s just a nice bonus! 

Saturday I had training – the entire day.  Training went from 7:30 to 6:00.  I was exhausted.  Judging is a lot harder than it may seem.  There are so many things you need to think of – it’s not just “Oh, i liked that routine” or “Oh, that was an average routine.”  Not only do you have to score about 10 different areas (technique, difficulty, etc), but if there’s a big discrepancy in scores, we always have a “Post Meet Conference” to go over our scores and give reasons why we gave the scores we did.  Plus there are people who have to count kicks (yes, you have to count kicks….with a counter device of course), and then there are people in a “tab” room, where you put all the scores together and rank everyone to where they placed.

After the training on Saturday, I headed over to my parents’ (about an hour drive) to watch the dog for the weekend while they were in California.  I ate and headed straight to bed once I got there.  Then Sunday was spent over at my brother’s house, and then a visit to see my Grandpa.

So needless to say, I’ve been busy, and haven’t had much time to sit and reflect on everything.  I’ll be back later to go over all that fun stuff with you.  For now, I gotta get back to work!!  Happy Hump Day!


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Monday, October 20, 2014

Moving Forward – Part 5

Monday Cartoon 10-20

It’s Monday!  Today wasn’t as bad as your “typical” Monday (and thank God it wasn’t “the world’s longest Monday”, ha!).  I was pretty tired, which is to be expected, but the day went by mighty fast.  And ending the day with Garfield is never a bad thing.

It’s finally time for the final part of my moving forward series.  Today I’m talking about the scale. 

No Scale

There will be no scale.  I’m not sharing the number I saw tonight, and the scale has gone in the closet.

Need proof?

Hide the scale

Right next to the toilet paper, because it can kiss my ass!!

I’m not sure when I’ll be taking it out again.  Maybe a month, maybe a couple months, maybe never.  it may not be the most interesting for a weight loss blogger to not track her weight.  People want results.  They want numbers.  But you know what?  People won’t get what they want if I have weekly weigh-ins, because there won’t be any progress.  And I’ll end up giving up, and I’ll end up not blogging again.  I don’t want that.

After I took a look at my past posts, I found that even when I was being really consistent with my workouts, it didn’t always show on the scale.  Eventually that led to my downfall, and I quit.  Because who wants to keep doing what they’re doing when there are absolutely no results on the scale?

I’m done worrying about that number.  Instead, I’ll be tracking my measurements (coming tomorrow), and taking progress pictures every 30 days.  It may not be that number on the scale, but I think it’s still something a reader of a weight loss blog would want to see.

So there you have it.  The end of my series, and the beginning of my new (and final) journey.  It will be a work in progress – everything always is. 

Let’s get started!!

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Thursday, October 16, 2014

Moving Forward – Part 4

Today I’m moving on to part 4 of my “Moving Forward” series, or this thing will never get done…ha!

I’ll be honest in that I’ve been avoiding this part, because I don’t know what in the actual f*ck I’m supposed to be doing when it comes to my eating.  Of course the cliché thing to say would be to “do what’s best for ME”…..well, um….I don’t know what’s best for me.  That’s the point.  I just don’t know if I can ever be that clean eater, or that flexible dieter, or that everything in moderation girl….the list goes on.  I have no idea what’s best for me, because the 6543543554351 things I’ve tried (but not really tried) have not worked.  That’s why I’m here.  That’s why I’m in the place I’m in right now, being my highest weight ever.

So, to be honest with you, I don’t really have a plan when it comes to eating.  I’m going to take it one day at a time.  For now, I’ll be making a plan for the week of what my meals will be.  Some will be healthy, some not-so-healthy, but for now…..I want to try to stick to a weekly plan.  Every week, I’m going to be posting my food and exercise “diary” to the blog.  I’m thinking Sundays would be a good day to do that.  I know that no one reads blogs on Sundays, but that’s what’s going to work best for ME. 

Of course, I’m not always the most consistent, so I may be doing those posts on Mondays or Tuesdays… all depends on when I can get on the laptop to put an actual post together.  And when I post those plans, it will be after the fact.  So the week will have already passed, and I’ll be going over what I ate, what I did for exercise vs. what my plan actually was.  So more of a summary of how I did, rather than planning for the week ahead.

This is mostly to hold myself accountable.  I’m hoping that, with time, one baby step will lead to another….and I’ll eventually find “what’s best for me.”  In the meantime, I hope you’ll stick it out with me while I figure that out.  And let me tell you….it’s going to be a bumpy ride.  But a fun one.    ;)

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Tuesday, October 14, 2014

New Adventures

Okay, I’m taking a little break from my “Moving Forward” series today to talk about what I’ve been doing so far this week.  I have come up with a plan, and I’m really excited to share it….but part of it is coming later, in another post.

Yesterday I went back to the gym…probably the first time in about a month.  I mentioned a while back that I joined Lifetime Fitness….lots of money, but well worth it.  Well, um….if I go, that is.  I really need to put that money to use if I’m going to have such an expensive membership.

Anyway….so yesterday I tried out the Warrior Sculpt class.  It’s like a blend of yoga, traditional strength & cardio training.  Plus….the room is heated up to about 75-80 degrees.  And of course I forgot my water bottle.  Ugh.  As soon as i walked in the room I needed a drink – it was heated in there!  The beginning of the class was really relaxing.  I started to wonder if I was in the right class.

Oh boy, I sure was in the right class!  The pace quickened from there.  I had to make several adjustments to make things easier, and had to leave the room a few times for some water.  There was one part where I felt a little dizzy, so I had to just stand there and wait for it to pass.

But I loved it!!  I’ve never done anything like it before.  Yes, it was hard – and a little embarrassing, because everyone seemed to keep up really well – but it is something I really want to keep working at!

Tonight I’ll be starting the C25K plan (Yep!!! I’m running again…..more on that in another post!!), and then I’ll be doing a LifeBarre class.  I’m really excited about that one, especially since I have a background in dance.  I don’t expect it to be easy, by any means….but dance is something I really, really miss.  I’m glad to be adding that class!

Hope everyone is having a great Tuesday!!

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